for the last few days, i've found myself down in the dumps, now i'm sure one of these reason is a lack of sleep but the more prominent reason is because i feel so useless.
i see all this sin all over this place and i'm sick of it. i want it to go away, i want people to be saved-truely saved. just in the last week i've heard my own peers and friends talk about drugs and alcohol. sex and teen pregnancy. suicide and cussing just for the fun of it.
what the heck is with these people?
do they not understand?
a three year old died last night of strep throat, two people died in a fire last night, two nineteen year olds were shot this last weekend, i know a sixteen year old who's pregnant with twins, i know a seventeen year old who gets high every day. there are earthquakes in haiti and tsunamis in japan. there are prostitutes on every corner in bari, italy. there are teens at blackhawk christian school that have sex and drink on the weekends and then come to school acting like they have never sinned before and are perfect. what is going on in this world?
it breaks my heart. i think as i'm getting older and maturing seemingly faster than a lot of people, i'm slowly realizing what's important in life. i'm looking at my friends and peers, i'm watching the news and listening to the radio, and what do i see? i see sin. everywhere. i see lost people begging to be found. i see 'christians' living quite the opposite as they should.
i want to help people, but i need to help myself first. though i'm never going to be perfect.
i really want to go on a mission trip this summer but i feel like there is so much hurt and need in the world around me that i shouldn't leave home. i need to minister here.
i recently listened to a sermon about glowing in the dark. it defiantly hit home. the pastor talked about how so many people don't care. they think they can just slide by doing the bare minimum. and even though we feel like we can't do anything to help, we need to be a glowstick. we can't give up. we need to glow in the dark.
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